2nd Corinthians 11:6, “But though I be rude in speech, yet not in knowledge; but we have been throughly made manifest among you in all things.” 1st Corinthians 16:24, “My love be with you all in Christ Jesus. Amen.” Galatians 4:16-17, “Am I therefore become your enemy, because I tell you the truth? They zealously affect you, but not well; yea, they would exclude you, that ye might affect them.”
I was exercising tonight. I want to eat right, think right, live right, and
do right for the rest of my life. God knows my heart. I want Harvest Baptist
Church on Guam to see beyond my harsh words, rude preaching, and I'm sure
what they consider inappropriate attacks against their ministry. For those
of you (my web visitors) who remember the old days 15 years ago, and you'll
still find it in some articles, I used to use scary music in ALL my
articles. I went online and gathered a collection of Halloween music and
added it to every article. A woman once emailed me and said some kind words.
She said that she understood why I use scary music, to “shock us as web
visitors” to the awfulness of sin and false teachings. She was exactly
right, but I had never realized that is what I was doing. She is right
friends! Why am I saying this? Well, it is because of
articles like this about Harvest
Baptist Church of Guam.
I am not trying to be a jerk. I am definitely frustrated that Harvest has ignored me all these years, even after I pleaded to come back to church services. But I make those photos, and preach the way I do, to get my point across. I am a musician. I absolutely love stringed instruments. I play about a dozen different instruments, pedal steel guitar being my favorite. I am a very expressive and passionate man. All my life, I have become attached to people, places and things quickly. That is just my heart. I attended Harvest Baptist Church of Guam for one year in 2014. To be honest, Pastor Marty Herron has an wonderful personality. His family and his charm made Harvest the beautiful atmosphere that it had. Doug and Karen were great people. Dave and Amy were kind to me, and I liked going to Watchcare meetings at their house. I would go to Doug and Karen's home first for Watchcare meeting, and then after that go to Dave And Amy's house for another Watchcare, because I so much wanted to be around all of them. They were my church family and I loved them all!
I know some of my web visitors don't understand my obsession with Harvest. You need to understand the way I am, as a loving and caring person. That is God's unconditional love in me as a born-again Christian. I get attached to people very quickly. I looked up to Pastor Herron very much, and respected him tremendously, and I still do. However, when he rejected THE TRUTH that I placed into his hands, and drove me out of church in 2014 by rebuking me and giving up on me, and then refusing to let me come back in 2017 when I begged him three times if I could please return to church, things changed drastically. I now had a fight on my hands, having to either let go and move on or stand my ground against a bad church. I chose the latter. I do not regret my decision, because somebody needs to care and love Harvest enough to TELL THEM THE TRUTH. God knows my heart, that I would lay down my life for the pastors, staff and people of Harvest Baptist Church. I truly would.
I sometimes am concerned that the folks at Harvest worry about me getting angry at them. I am not like that. I get frustrated, but I give it to the Lord. I preach strongly, because that is how I was trained. I was trained by preachers, not academics in Bible college. Only preachers can reproduce preachers! I want you all to know at Harvest that I would rather die ten thousand deaths than ever hurt anybody in this world, let alone anyone from Harvest. Everyone, and I mean everyone, from Harvest who has known me for the past 7 years, KNOWS that I have never, not even one time, failed to wave at you guys because I was angry or having a bad day. I love you all more than I can express in words. I actually began to cry tonight, as I thought about what I was going to write in this article. I know my articles are rude, offensive at times, and in your face, but God sees my heart. I simply am making a strong point.
Concerning the earlier article, where I accuse Harvest of worshipping Pastor Walton as God, and Dr. Pettit as the Savior. This heresy of Lordship Salvation is dangerous. It is not the Gospel of free grace. Nobody is taking this matter seriously in the Bob Jones University camp. That is why I am harsh in my preaching, to make a strong point. Anybody who bids Godspeed to a man like Steve Pettit, knowing he is a Calvinist in salvation, is elevating him above the Savior. And if Pastor Walton supports Bob Jones University, and their “turn from your sin” junk theology, then he is placing himself in the stead of God. Respectfully, what has sadly happened today is that thousands of Baptist churches have just succumbed to the battle over what is the Gospel, accepting both a free grace Gospel and Lordship Salvation as valid plans of salvation. People in the churches aren't theologians, so they are confused and don't know what to think.
And sadly, many pastors don't know the Bible very well, and so they just stay quite and go along with everybody who is a Baptist. Folks, that is so wrong on many levels. The popular excuse I hear from the Lordship Salvation gang is that preachers have debated this subject of repentance for centuries, and so we should just ignore it and agree to disagree. No, that is the worst thing we can do! The Gospel of John was written for the sole purpose of showing us how to be saved (John 20:31). I triple-dog dare you to show me anything in John about turning from sins, getting water baptized, or surrendering your life to follow Jesus as “Lord” no matter what. You cannot!!! I am not trying to be a jerk Harvest, I love you all. I want you all to know that I'm not building up in anger or anything. God knows I am just sad, lonely and getting ready to leave Guam, God willing, hopefully this year. Because of my neck injury (constant neck pain and burning throughout my body's nerves), I am afflicted day and night. There is so much that I have to do before and especially after I move. And once I make the move, the pressure is on, and I cannot just kick back because I don't feel well. My life will be in turmoil and I will HAVE TO take care of 100 things, literally. So moving is an extremely big challenge for me.
I don't own any guns or weapons. I am terrified of them. I don't want anyone worrying about me. When I attended Harvest in 2014, Missionary Phil Hunt came to visit from Africa. As he preached, he shared his personal childhood pain of seeing his father put a steak knife to his mother's throat. I wept much, because I share that very same horrifying experience. I was about 7 years old. I ran crying into the kitchen, begging my father not to kill my Mom. He flung me in anger up against the kitchen wall and warm urine ran down my legs in my pajamas, in fear. I was horrified. The next morning my father told me how ashamed of me he was, for interfering with their argument. I love my father, and he was a Christian. We are all dirty sinner! All of us. I am no better than you, and you're no better than me. It took many decades to truly forgive my father, and understand that we are all guilty sinners, and NO ONE has a right to condemn another human being (Romans 8:34; James 4:12; Matthew 7:1-5; Romans 14:10-12).
After Phil Hunt's sermon, they took up a love offering for him. I emptied my wallet, my pant's pocket, my shirt pocket. It was over $400. It was everything I had on me. I would have given him $3,000 if I had brought that much with. The elderly couple next to me saw what I did, and they just smiled, knowing that God had touched my heart, and He sure did! Consequently, to this day for my entire life I have refused to own a sharp knife in my home. I have two clam knives, which are rounded at the tip. I am terrified of sharp knives. I heard about a dentist who killed his wife with a baseball bat. I will never own a bat in my home. I am terrified of bats. Call me weird, but if you grew up the way I did, you're be afraid too. I am the most peace loving man you'll ever find. That is why I love, and love and love you all at Harvest. I'm the wounded dog whom you can kick, and I'll still love you!
The past 15 years of my life have been very lonely and frustrating, but I have obeyed the Scriptures to LOOK TO JESUS (Hebrews 12:2). But after 7 years since being thrown under the bus by Harvest Baptist Church, my soul is tired, and I don't want to live like this anymore. That simply means I need to move, nothing more. I know wherever I relocate, I'll make new friends and start a new life, but for now it is just a big empty space in my mind, and that makes it difficult. I honestly don't even know if I can handle moving. I've been thinking of finding and marrying a young gal in the Philippines, so she can help me with things. The loneliness is the worst part for me. I like what Pastor Bob Gray Sr. taught me. It is not a sin to be afraid, but it is a sin to be afraid to be afraid. In other words, it is not wrong to be afraid, but if you allow fear to cause you not to trust God, then that is wrong. I'm not afraid to move, I just don't know if I can handle everything in lieu of my neck pain. As I type I have agonizing burning pain in my neck, and burning throughout my nervous system. I am otherwise healthy. So even though I am perfectly functional (thank God), I don't feel like doing much of anything 95% of the time. Who would? So I am planning to move, as my health allows. I love you all very much at Harvest. I honestly think Harvest's pastors and staff are just a bunch of young folks, who have a hard time relating to an older troublemaker like me...lol. I mean no harm, truly.
I love people and don't like all this ugliness. I am a fighter, but equally a lover, I truly am. And so was Pastor Jack Hyles. Dr. Hyles was the most loving man I ever knew in my life, he truly was. He gave his heart, money, time and self to people like no one I've ever met in my life. I love Brother Hyles so much. I wish things had been different for the past 7 years. I didn't choose that fight, it chose me! You don't have to fight to be a man, because sometimes you have to fight because you are a man! I have prayed for Pastor Herron in Iowa, his family in Wisconsin, Pastor Walton and my neighbours hundreds of times. I have made an investment in Harvest Baptist Church all these many years. How could I not love you all, when my heart is with you all every Sunday and Wednesday? I am simply being like the Lord Himself. 2nd Timothy 2:13, “If we believe not, yet he abideth faithful: he cannot deny himself.”
On a related but different note, I am taking better care of my health. It is challenging for me to lose weight. It's hard to believe I lost 70 pounds in 2017. That is what a woman will do to you! She didn't want me, so I gained my weight back...lol. As Americans, most of us struggle with our weight. I have lost some weight though, and am determined to keep going. Exercising helps motivate me to watch my diet. I'm eating more protein, veggies and fiber, and less carbohydrates and sugar. My neck pain and nerve burning fights me every step of the way, and I get depressed. I went to Cost-U-Less this afternoon and and bought these health foods. I wanted you to see what I got...
